You were my best friend
I talked to you daily
there always seemed to be something to say
all the time
and it was fun
you were so sweet to me
so different from the rest
I thought you were so wonderful
like Prince Charming
always there in case I needed a kiss to revive
me
you cared, you listened, and you understood
you seemed to know me more than anyone else
I poured my heart out to you
and told you the things that really mattered
and you still cared
I thought you would always be there
but I ruined the most precious friendship
I had
by not letting go of the past
a past that should have been long gone
a past of heartache, misfortune and pain
I guess the pain felt good in a strange sort
of way
it reminded me of familiar feelings that
seemed to comfort me
feelings from the past
sometimes it is hard to let go of the past
because it is the only thing that you know
you understand it and you know what to expect
even though it can be really bad for you
but I don't want to live in the past anymore
I want to go forward and learn new things
experience new feelings, good feelings
feelings that could be so much happier
but I am not sure how
I want to pick up where we were and go forward
now that I have hurt you
I am not sure if you will be my best friend
anymore
god, I hope so, I pray so
but I am not hopeful
you are so special to me
almost like a soulmate
I hope you will forgive me
people really do change